Alone.

I am surrounded by people.

And I am alone.

I am always alone, even in the company of others. Even when I am with my friends.

My depressing thoughts of isolation and solitude may result in the emotion of never fitting in. It is a feeling I often have. People will reassure me that they're there, that they are listening, that they are here for me. But I have enough experience to know that every human can connect with one another in only so many ways.... I know that no one will ever understand or know me as much as I know myself. I know that I'll never understand my friends' true motives and feelings.

It is quite common for people like me (people who don't enjoy their birthdays, people who don't like talking to anyone but those they know well, people who would rather sit in absolute silence with a book than socialize) to notice this. It is expected that deep thinkers acknowledge this.

If you really think about it, we are all alone. Every single one of us. I'm on my journey to the Elsewhere, and others are on their journey to everywhere else.

So there you have it. In my little corner of the universe, I am alone.

Replaceable

Do you remember

Do you remember
The last time you said you were at peace?
We held talked about everything and nothing.
We were walking to a Greater Perhaps.
And I smiled.

Oh no, he's become self-aware... Disney's going to have to do something about that.


Remember the last time a Disney character became self-aware?

And he was never heard from again.

Greetings, fellow earthlings

Hey guys. Man, it's been forever....

I think I'm going to change it up a bit. Maybe stop joining every Clan site I see, keeping more to myself. I think I'm going to be less frequent, too. I have less free time than last year, and a little more maturity too. And self control.



Currently reading:

Seeing Redd by Frank Beddor

The Last Dragonslayer by Jasper Fforde


Current recommended books:

The Giver by Lois Lowry

Island of the Aunts and Which Witch by Eva Ibbotson

Holes by Louis Sachar


By the way.... I fired Umbreon. She's not coming back. Like, ever.

Hello Again

I read all those books, as promised. I figured out that in between Fire Bringer and Fell, there's another book. It's called The Sight and it's by the same author as the other two. I'm too lazy to do all-out book reviews, so you'll have to settle with this, but in short, they are all awesome books.
Finding My Place was amazing and powerful, and I cried at the end. I advise the world to read it.
Fire Bringer, Fell, and The Sight were all kind of a series, Fire Bringer being about deer while the other two about wolves. They were extremely interesting and well written, and I was sad when Fell ended. I cried at the end of all three, as was predicted by my brother.
Animal Farm was downright creepy. I'm just glad I did this on my own time, not for school. Because I would be writing from a rubber room if I read it at school. Just kidding, but seriously, it was freaky. George Orwell is talented and insane. With great gifts come great mental institute bills.
The Agency was fresh and neat. It was a crafty idea, a female Sherlock Holmes school. The main character was cunning and witty, and along with a male character with a big part to play. Overall it was cool and girls from ages eleven to seventeen should read it if you're looking for awesome espionage and action.


So yeah. I also picked up three more books and they are called My Unfair Godmother, The Naming, and The Outside of a Horse. Waveclaw, you would like the last one. I finished the first and I'm starting the second, saving the third for last. My Unfair Godmother was really funny. I laughed a lot and gained a few helpful writing tips. Which reminds me...
 I'm probably going to be unable to update my stories a ton, so prepare for empty gaps.

The end.

Happenings

Today I went to the library and picked up a whole bunch of books. I got Fell and Fire Bringer, both by David Clement-Davis, Finding My Place by Traci L. Jones, The Agency: A Spy in the House by Y. S. Lee, and Animal Farm by George Orwell. I've only started Animal Farm, but they all look great.

Also, school got out for me on the seventh and I can't wait for next year! Also one of my good friends is moving to another state over the summer......... and I'm really sad about that.
Spotsy out.